“What do you mean?” Tamika’s old man asked as he stared at me with a cynical glance. He seemed like he had just heard me say an absurd phrase in a strange language. The look on his face almost had me a bit discouraged from saying what I was about to say, but I managed to still myself with the fact that I had been in many more unfriendly negotiations like that one. “Well, I'm here to strike a deal.” I was much more direct that time around as I was trying not to waste more time beating around the bush. “Let's not mess around, Mr. Fisher. I'm sure that it's no news to you that I want to marry your daughter.”I paused a little as I saw Tamika's stepmother as she drew closer to the table where we were having the discussion. I was almost fuming as I couldn't recall inviting her to the table and that had me furrowing my brows as she came to the table with such confidence. But then, I was going to pretend that she wasn't there at the table. All I had to do was keep my eyes on Mr. Fisher a

In the heat of my desperation and mixed feelings, I was still taking yet another look at the video that tensed my heart.“I'm back, Tamika…” Dolph came right through the door with a slight look of excitement which usually meant that he was actually, overly excited at that point. “What did I miss?”“Well, nothing really,” I said as I put my phone away quickly. I had been watching the videos all over again, even after having promised myself that the last time would be the last time I would watch it. But there I was, watching it like it was some sort of movie clip that one would just watch over and over until they couldn't get enough of it.“So… what's the celebration face all about?” I asked as I put up a fake smile so that he wouldn't know that there was a cause for alarm. I concealed it perfectly, as he came walking towards me with his arms sprawled out for a hug. I just wanted to drown myself in his embrace without thinking about anything I had seen in the video. But that was impos

“That's great news… what's with the sad tone that's making it look like you suddenly received some sort of death sentence…?” Julia said, using the exact words that Dolph had said to me. I was almost freaking out with each moment of that phone call where Julia seemed to be congratulating me on conceiving. It wasn't a bad thing entirely but I just had the feeling that it just happened at the wrong time. I just felt I just want ready for any of that. “Are you listening to the way you sound, Tamika? You need to cheer up. This is Dolph Martin's baby you're carrying here. You don't know just how many people wished they had the opportunity that you just got right now. So… just cheer up and accept all of the benefits that come with you being the mother of his child.” Julia made me feel like she was the therapist and I was now the patient.“Alright…” I sighed, as it was hard to cheer up at that point. I didn't know why it felt like I had just married my celebrity status. People knew the unm

What the heck had I done to myself? I wondered as I was all alone in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror with a sudden surprise that I just couldn't understand. It was quite like a dream that I had tried to go savage on Tamika. Why had that part of me suddenly been awakened at such a time as that? It was all looking like a seeming setup as I was trying to figure out what exactly had triggered that side of me. What could it have been?As I washed over my face with the water, I was soon playing it all back in my head and it was looking like it had all begun when I stepped into the room and heard the sounds of something that sounded like my past. I could almost link that memory with a smell that had come with the moment. There were a lot of things that made me feel like the man that I used to be back then. The particular clips that had played from Tamika's phone resonated in my mind with a startling kind of familiarity. “Get it together, Dolph…” I was trying to put it all b

“Oh my…” the day was finally there and I just couldn't stay quiet about it. I had been amazed from the very moment I had woken from my sleep. There were just too many things that felt like I was about to explode from the explosion. I had hurried through all of my morning routines as I just couldn't keep the childlike excitement from expressing itself. I had skipped past some of them as I just couldn't concentrate on doing all of them. My meditation routine was almost impossible in the heat of the excitement. Julia had called me up by midnight to remind me of it, just in case I would sleep through it. There were just too many things that made it all look like it was going to be a bigger thrill than the one I had seen in those fuzzy dreams I used to have of getting married to Dolph. “Are you going to ever get off that mirror today?” Dolph asked suddenly from behind as he scared me out of my fantasies of how wonderful the day would be for the both of us. “There were a lot of things th