44. LETTING HIM GO

Minutes passed with nothing but silence after his words. He just sat there, his face blank with me crying. I pulled my feet onto the chair, my head on my knees, and just letting the tears fall. I could not hold it back; I could not hide away from him. His words kept echoing and making it even worse. My tears dried, just sitting there not wanting to say anything back for I would be accepting it all. I did not want to raise my head because I would have to talk and accept what had been said. 

It hurt so much but I was sure it hurt even more for him on top of all that he had to deal with. I would not let myself add to his troubles. I would not make everything worse for him. He had a war inside and out with it seeming he was losing both. Life was unfair. I had thought my life was the worst but I took it all back. My pain was nothing compared to all they had gone through. 

I would have to let him go; I would have to let all of him go. My hands were shaking, my hand