Max  There are moments in life when you regret the mistakes you make, and when you realize how much of a fool you have been . I don't know why I keep on hurting the people I love . I always find a way to mess up the one good thing I have , except for a relationship that was mended by a woman whose heart I think I just broke . After slamming the door I couldn't bring myself to leave and just run . I heard Ellie shut the bathroom door and I stood up to go to her guest room to go get cleaned up .I knew I had just messed up and I couldn't leave her thinking I broke her heart. Now that I think about it I didn't even give her a chance to plead her case . Ellie has always been my biggest can even when I thought I was messed up; she showed me that I can trust with no holds bard and be accepted for who and what I am. It's not that I am struggling to trust her, I am afraid to let go because I fear losing what I already have . Once I was done I w

 Max  Three weeks . It's been exactly three weeks, and I haven't heard anything from Ellie . She won't take anyone's calls not even Daniel's .On the day she said she needed a break we went through with the housewarming party and everyone except for Salvatore knew what was going on . He had snuck up on Maria and knocked her out by injecting something into her neck. As soon as she was knocked out he called the cops. The party went well and Ellie knew how to hide the fact that we were in trouble , she wasn't with me half the time and during lunch she did sit next to me . My brother wanted to tell me something but ; he held back , I later received a text from him asking what was going on? I told him; I messed up so badly I don't think there is a way to fix the mess I made. Ellie wasn't even talking to my mother that's how bad things were .  It's been raining all week and it hasn't stopped . The weather

Chapter 35 MaxA wise person once told me that life is a balancing act. You win some and you lose some . If at any point you find stability then you have achieved balance .There is truth to what he said but ; having been an athlete what you always try and achieve when performing is an optimal level where everything just goes your way all the time... but life is like a heart beat rate monitor monitoring beats . There cannot be ups without downs ,and if the line is flat there is something wrong. This morning I woke up to the best news I could receive ; only to be told by Ellie that we needed to get to the hospital as soon as possible . Something had happened to my mother , brother and sister. Deep down I inside I had a sinister feeling that my father was involved . Blake had made sure that security at our my mother's house was taken care of. The hospital called Ellie because she was the on my mother put down as next of kin. Doctor Killian was off for the mo

  Max The past couple of weeks have not only been hectic on me , but on my family too. I should be consider myself to be a lucky man because I have a girlfriend who is pregnant with multiples, and a brother and sister who love me to bits ,but I have been so cold and distant to everyone around me and even Ell tried to get me to smile by cooking my favorite meal but I didn't even show her any appreciation . My mother isn't going to get her memory back and well my father ...my real father is the only person she remembers and wants to be with . No one else . My siblings were at Dan's tonight giving me much needed time with Ellie. I had just finished a couple of things for work and I was ready to talk to her. I couldn't find her anywhere in the house and I knew I had more than messed up when her car wasn't in the garage. I called my brother to track her down and he gave me an earful on how I've been a Grinch he corrected himself during the c

 Song - Craig David - you don't miss the water  Max I can't keep anything secret from Ell. She has been the only person who has always supported me regardless of how badly I messed up. Nicolai threatened me the day before yesterday. The money I owed was to also cover an incident that had happened with Garry. I should have known better than to go along with anything he suggested. We were both fired because we were found out . Maria was the chairman's daughter and she told her father everything and the truth about her abortion. It was a joint decision and Tim understood that. The club had a no doping policy ,and any match fixing in any way or form. Garry was being investigated for the latter and we both were found guilty for using gym candy . The Club let us both go and the DC banned us from anything to do with the sport or club, on condition that the story doesn't get out. We even signed an NDA and finned. That was why it wa