RowanTears stream down my face as I watch them leave.There's no one here to hug me, no one to assure me it's going to all work out the way it's supposed to. I could have asked Sullivan to come, but then I'd have to explain to him about Cutter, and for now I want to keep all our memories to myself. I'm not a big fan of leaving things up to chance, but this is one of those times I'll have to have some trust. I don't have a crystal ball and I don't know what the future will bring. Not even sure I wanna know what the future has in store for me. It's burnt me more than once. In bigger ways than I ever thought it could.My eyes follow the taillights of the vehicles until they're gone. They're a blip on the horizon and I know I need to leave. It'll do me no good to stand here and wish things were different.Feeling completely hollow, I walk over to my car and get in, starting the engine. It's still warm here in the south, so I crank up my air conditioner, turn on the radio and ta

RowanI've never been so excited to take a road trip. In fact, I can't remember the last one I took. Maybe when I was sixteen and some friends and I went to a concert in Birmingham. After I got pregnant with Etta things changed, and then after she died, I changed.As I hit I-65 North, my heart feels less heavy, and the more I leave Paradise Lost in the background, a smile spreads across my face easier than it has in years. Reaching over, I turn up the radio, open my sunroof, and put the car on cruise control. The GPS says I have an hour and a half to go with most of my travel being on this section of interstate.Glancing at my rearview, I get a picture of myself in the reflection I wasn't expecting. One I haven't seen in years. My hair is down, blowing in the breeze, my eyes are full of life and my skin is pink with excitement. I almost don't recognize myself, but at the same time I do know her. She's the me I've always wanted to be.When I stop at a rest area, I dial Cutter

Rowan"I'm so sorry you had to be thrown before the firing squad."I'm not exactly sure what he's talking about. "The firing squad?""Yeah, my nosey as fuck family.""They're nice." And they really are. No one has made me feel more welcome. "Your mom said there's family breakfast at The Café tomorrow?""We don't have to go if you don't want to. I promise no one will say anything.""It's okay, we can go. I liked them a lot. I like how they love you." I kneel on the bed, walking on my knees over to him. "They're suffocating."I push my arms around his neck, holding him tightly. "You're their favorite person, I think. You're at least Keegan's favorite person and Ransom loves you like crazy."His eyes soften. "I love them a lot too. Ya know my dad and I had a conversation about love the other day.""Oh really?"My pulse gets faster, I'm not sure what he's going to say to me. "Yeah, I told him you scare the fuck out of me.""I scare you?""So much."I scrutin

Rowan"This is so cute!"I love the downtown look of Laurel Springs. We're in Cutter's truck driving to The Café, where we're having breakfast with his family. I'm doing my best to not be sad because I have to leave tonight, but I'm thankful for the time we've gotten to spend together."Yeah, it is. You know, it's funny. I've spent most of my life wondering why I can't get out of this town, but now that I've been to Paradise Lost and Tuscaloosa, I realize how much I love it here. We have a hometown vibe not many get to have."I could see myself living here. I don't say the words out loud, but I could. The feel of the place is so happy. There aren't bad memories everywhere I turn. There's just a chance to make new ones. He turns on his blinker, groaning. "Looks like everybody and their mama's here today.""What do you mean?" But then I see it, a huge row of cars, trucks, and a couple of Jeeps."Mom must have invited the entire LSERT to eat this morning. Don't touch that d

RowanThe knock on my door causes me to shriek in excitement. I know it's Cutter, and even though it's only been a few days, I've missed him. I run so fast I slide on the hardwood, hitting the door in the front foyer. "Ouch.""Ro, are you okay?"I'm holding my forehead as I swing it open, and let him in. "Fine, I was too excited and skid."He sweeps me up in his arms, and I'm back where I've wanted to be since I left Laurel Springs. "Missed you." He runs his nose along my jawline."Missed you, too."This time I release him from my grip, letting him come completely into the living room. "Four days, huh?""Four days," he confirms, excitement in his eyes.But I can see it, the weariness marked by dark circles. "How long have you been awake?"He glances at his watch. "Going on twenty hours.""As excited as I am that you're here, I really think you should get some sleep. It won't do either of us any good if you're dead on your feet.""But you work tomorrow," he argues.