Today was our first appointment with the gynaecologist. When I dressed up that morning, it was with a heavy heart. It had gotten to this. The point of being questioned about my ability to carry a child. Leo came to me just the day before and casually announced that he had booked us an appointment at a fertility clinic first thing this morning. We had never actually discussed it but who was I to question him? I was yet to tell River about all this. She would freak out. I knew she was more than willing for me to call it quits on this marriage. For some reason, I found it hard to speak to her about these things. I felt she would not really understand the pressure I had to face. We were the same age but I was married - a whole different ball game from what she was used to. Sometimes, most of the time even, I wished to be in her shoes. "We're going to be late." Leo came in and jolted me out of my thoughts. "I'll be right there." I said, trying to hide my reluctance. I hated having

We decided to go through with the IUI procedure firstly since it seemed less tasking but it failed. Leo insisted that the IVF was a better choice, I don't even know why.The IVF process was a painful one for me. The first time Leo actually decided to consummate our union was because of it.It was an awkward evening. We had just moved out of his parent's house. His mother had crossed the line again and again and Leo's father thought it best that we moved into our own space. I was so grateful for that, he just did not know how much. It was so refreshing to be away from the drama.Leo bought a four-bedroom duplex. It was a smaller space, easier for us to move around and we came across each other more. I took my time in decorating that space, he did not care for all those things so it was never an issue.I wanted to be able to speak to him more freely but he was never available. He was always out, we had separate rooms and my tongue was tied every time I wanted to speak to him on issues a

Home...I sighed when I finally got to lay on my bed for the first time in three days. "How were you able to keep the house so neat?" I asked Leo just before he left after making sure I was comfortable in bed."Oh, I got a cleaning service." He said."Food?""I ate out.""Okay.""Do you need anything? I could order for you,"He asked. I thought about it. I figured I was getting bloated and bigger due to all the things I had to take to conceive. I had to be on a strict diet now because my mother had insisted on it whether I liked it or not."No thanks." I trudged downstairs only about an hour later, fully rested. In my head, I was well rested. He was seated there watching a movie. "What are you watching?" I asked him. "Just a random movie I stumbled on." He said, tapping on the menu to check its name out.I slipped into one end of the grey couch I had picked out for our white themed house. I recall how difficult it was to pick out a specific theme for the house when we finally de

I stared at the test kit in awe. I looked at its pack again and reread the instructions on it. Two lines. It was positive. I was pregnant! I sighed and sat back on the toilet seat. How was I going to break the news to Leo? I thought and thought about it and I could not find a suitable way.I heard him come into my room and immediately hid the kit even though I knew he would not enter my bathroom. I came out slightly jumpy due to what I had just found out."Everything okay?" He asked.I nodded quickly and slowed down so he wouldn't get suspicious, "Yeah. Do you need anything?""Dad wants us to be at the final campaign today." He announced.The election was less than a week away. It was no surprise that he wanted us to be there."Do we have to go?" I asked. I didn't feel so good.He sighed, "I don't exactly want to but he insists and mom has made me promise to be there." "Okay then. I'll be ready soon." "Great." He strode out and now I had to ponder on what to wear. What do you wear

I woke up in his bed, startled awake by the strangeness of the room. If this was going to be a norm, it would take a lot of getting used to."Good morning," I sat quickly when I heard his voice. "Good morning," I said, looking around for the alarm clock to see what the time was. I let out a gasp when I saw it. "I'm sorry I overslept. Have you had breakfast?" I asked apologetically."Yeah. The cook made something, she left yours in the kitchen.""Thank you.""Do you feel better?""I guess so," I shrugged and covered my mouth as a yawn escaped my mouth. "I have to go to work. I'll see you in the evening," He said."Alright."He placed a kiss on my forehead and left.~~~"Mom don't speak to her like that.""Oh so you're going to fight your mother over a barren woman?" She retorted in her annoying high pitched tone.This was why we took time before breaking the news to our parents. Leo sighed in exasperation. "Mom stop. Just stop. This was out of our control." "She was careless!"I