Flying high

I don't know what to think or feel about the situation I am currently in. I am standing in my room feeling excited and nervous too. I am feeling sad for leaving behind everything for my dreams and I am longing for a future that is bright and successful. my mind is in a conflict battling what to choose and how to feel.Sighing I roam my eyes around my room which has a lot of memories some are sweet, some are bitter but this room is like a haven to me saving me from the situations and things that I am running from. Memories with family and friends. This room has seen my tears and smiles, sobs, and laughs.After the memory lane, I resumed packing my stuff and making sure everything is packed in the bags I left my

I woke up to the sound of my alarm blaring."shut up" I rolled to the side to stop that devil which is my alarm and went back to sleep.The second time I woke up feeling something heavy on me and it crushes me."Ahhhhhhhhh! I yelled my lungs out."Stop yelling scar". Zay said laughing out loud.I opened my eyes to see that the weight crushing me is none other than zay and she is laughing her ass off."Get off of me, you hippo! What the bloody hell zay, you look skinny but you are crushing me into the bed and I feel like someone is crushing me with a stone" I said while trying to get her off of me.She gasps and said dramatically"take that back scar"" What if I don't take it back," I said sassily." I am gonna count 1 to 3 if you won't take it back then see what will happen," she said threatening me."Stop being a drama queen Zay," I said while gettin

I am dreading this day and it's already noon. I just have 2 to 3 hours left for the party. I don't know why but iam feeling like something is going to happen and these past few days are my best days. I have been living in a shell for the last year but here in New York with lilly and Zay, it feels like there had been nothing bad that happened in the past. I have been miserable for the past year and this one month in New York with lilly and Zay shows me I can be happy again, I can laugh wholeheartedly again. I can survive a a day without a panic attack and I can breathe without feeling like someone is judging me. It took 2 hours to get ready. Zayreen gave me a red dress which comes to my knees and has thin straps on my shoulders and it fits like a glove. She did my hair and makeup which consists of smokey eyes and curls.zay added some volume to my brown hair by curling. My grey eyes are looking alive with smokey color and at last with a Scarlett red lipstick.She is

It's been two weeks since that night and iam able to forget that something had happened that night. if I would have that old Scarlett I would have been still in that trance crying every night to sleep and the nightmares would have become frequent but no, I am having nightmares just two or three times but every time the dark figures chase me I am being pulled by something precisely someone with brown eyes. Sighing for the nth time I started working on my assignments. I have been doing my assignments for two hours and still didn't reach a certain point.it would have completed one hour before but with all the distractions I am not able to concentrate on it. After trying to concentrate and continue the assignment I gave it up. Without putting your 100% you can't complete anything. I left my room to check up on lilly and zayreen. It's Sunday and after breakfast, I went to my room to finish my project and I don't know what they are up to.&

  Iam currently sitting in university's library preparing for the test which is going to be on Friday and today is wednesday.i know I have one more day to prepare but iam not the kind of student who wastes one second of their time for their tests and that's what Iam doing currently preparing notes.