Loving you Again

"Scalpel," I said, and the scrub nurse handed it over.I cut whatever I need to cut. This is my usual day, cutting and suturing, seeing blood and human flesh.My colleagues call me Esth, short for Esther. In my 29 years of existence, I didn't expect that I would end up being a doctor, specifically a surgeon. At first I was terrified of doing all this stuff, it wasn't really my choice but my mother is a die-hard doctor who wanted to be, it's her long-lost dream!The whole day ends with an ill body and blood in my hand. Then after cutting and suturing, I can finally rest and go home.I don't have a boyfriend, as if! Having a tight job, do I have time to get one? Jeez! Even getting laid isn't part of my life, so to my vagina, RIP!Even if I want to mingle with anyone or someone, nah! I cut that thought since it just always ends up worse!There are a lot of times that I try to date anyone, everyone! But then when my profession calls... what can I do? Can I say to the sick person to wait?

ESTHER POV"You are gorgeous, more than any girls I have been with. Your kiss shook me within. You don't need a man to feel that you are not alone. I am a woman, but I am with you."I know I am a little tipsy now but I still understand what she is talking about, I can even still remember her friends asking me a lot of things though they look nice, and her pad, I didn't know she owned this huge place to live in but she is alone and that is what I supposed to know!Listening to what she just said makes me stare at her. I mean, she is really sweet. For a long time I have been single, and hearing this from someone will surely drop my panty off!I try to stop myself from what I am thinking aside from touching her face. I ended up staring at her lips and later did I know we were now kissing...I must be very drunk now, my mind is now bursting out! What the fuck am I doing!??? Am I really this single to kiss a same-sex!?My mind is trying to refuse but my body seems like enjoying what we are

ESTHER POVSeeing Amber makes me feel something again though I must admit things arent the same anymore...Feeling dizzy and tired, I still need to get up going to my duty, two major operation and few minors, I try to skip the work for today but I cant, within me is telling that I still need to be productive!When I got to the hospital, I check the details and find out who is my patient..."Dolly Holist"I am trying to figure out why the name is familiar to me until my cellphone got a notification, I recieve a message from Amber...Fuck! It is Amber's nan! "Esth, my nan was brought to your emergency last night having a stomach pain, I hope you can check on her please, I am still at work overnight-Amber"So I am correct, it is her nan, I quickly find her room to check on her, "What is Dolly Holist room?""305 doc!""Okay thanks"I head to the room and see Dolly on that state though I can still see the positivity within her face."Hey Doll, how are you feeling now?""Esth...! I am hap

ESTHER POVI am not sure if our friendship is for the better or not, but seeing Amber sincere look, how can I disagree to what she wants."I am not going anywhere Amber, and FYI we lost each other so its even""About that, how are you after our break up?""Wow, you really wanted to know huh...""Well we are friends now I guess we are free to ask each other a question"I am silenced on what how she was so cool about this friendship thing."Fine! Well, I never had a relationship ever since you came to my life so I can decipher the difference but to tell you how I was after, I cried a lot, I burried myself to work and hangout to every man and woman I met!""Hearing that from you makes me think if I am still talking to a same Esther before or she has been upgraded!""What? Upgraded? Hahaha do I look like a mobile phone geez! Well people change, changes makes us better and strong I guess""It seems you really love that changes and it suits you""Hmmmm you like who I am now than before dont

ESTHER POVEntrusting me with someone? It isnt good for my ear, I am thinking otherwise, it seems like she is excusing herself for not even following the three month rule of breakup!I ask her a question that seems to stop her but later starts to speak,"Hold to that, dont get me wrong please, I didnt say it to excuse myself okay, I am sincere and worried about you, yes I kind of wondering myself why I got into another relationship right away but how can you blame me? I fall in love with her which I didnt anticipate"She said and I totally get that, I guess I am just making things a little complicated for the reason that I dont know, "Fine, well knowing that it isnt just an excuse is enough for me and you dont need to worry, I have lots of time to flirt and do blind dates okay!""Just make it right""Hmmmm why? Are you sure having Casey as your girlfriend implies that you did right?"And then here she is again, staring weird on me again and again!I can see the surprise on her first e