When Matthew and I still hadn't finished our meal, the company's employees had already gone back to work. They also seemed to have noticed something unusual in their boss's room, but no one dared to look this way.Still, I knew their attention was always on me and Matthew. The feeling of being noticed by others was unfamiliar to me, and subconsciously my actions were more rigid."Have you finished your meal yet?" I asked Matthew in a low voice. Although I knew people outside couldn't hear what we were saying to each other, I subconsciously forced myself to speak as quietly as possible. The main purpose was to make myself feel secure."Can't you see I'm still eating?" Matthew looked up at me."Don't just sit there and watch me eat, you haven't eaten much, you have to eat more or you'll get thinner and thinner." Matthew said and popped a piece of salad into my mouth."I'm done eating." I put my hand on my stomach to prove what I said to Matthew. "Look, my stomach is full, if I eat anymo

63I found myself more alone than at any other time in my life when I was sitting alone in Matthew's officeMatthew was really too perfect, his perfection made a person used to confidence like me become a person with low self-esteem and miscellaneous worries.For me before, just having a stable life and not having to worry about money was fine, but now I wanted more. I wished I had enough talent, enough accomplishment to hold my head high when I stood with Matthew.Since Rebeca appeared, I hadn't seen her much, but I thought about her a lot. Whenever I accidentally heard someone mention her, my heart ached. At that time, I was very confused, very scared. Although I knew that the core issue affecting our relationship was not Rebecca but the disparity and mistrust between me and Matthew, yet I still couldn't help but worry every time I thought of her.I knew I should sit still in Matthew's office, but in my mind, the scenery that Rebecca and Matthew were always together, happily discuss

Matthew hugged me tightly then kissed me deeply, his kiss seemed to take all my breath away, making me focus only on him and his sweetness and intensity that left me no time to think of anything else.Matthew's kiss made me dizzy, although he used to love to kiss me, he often gave me passionate kisses, but he had never kissed me so strongly like that. When Matthew finished the kiss, I quickly took a few deep breaths to regain my composure."Let's go back home." Matthew took my hand, his voice so sweet.I hesitated for a moment, then stammered. "Aren't you going back to the company?"It was still very early, I was sure he still had a lot of work to do.Thinking about that, I subconsciously lowered my head. It was me who delayed Matthew's work. I couldn't help you, on the contrary, cause a lot of trouble."Do you think I'm still in the mood to handle the company's business?" Matthew rolled his eyes.I was silent and dared not speak.Matthew was going to go but I was still standing still

After that day, Matthew forced me to bring him lunch every day. I was very happy to have meals with Matthew every day, but every time I saw employees in his company, especially the secretary that I met that day, I felt very shy. I just wanted to find a big hole in the floor and get in there so you didn't have to face those people anymore.That day, when I left here in a panic, my mind was a bit deceitful, but I still knew a lot of people turned to look at my footsteps with surprised, curious eyes. I suddenly left while Matthew's ex-girlfriend came to his company, everyone understood the reason. There was a little bit of curiosity in every human being, and they certainly wanted to know what my relationship with Matthew was like.The first time I went to Brown Corporation, I ran into your ex-girlfriend. It was a very unfortunate thing, I didn't want such an awkward situation to happen again, but with the resolute attitude of Matthew, I could only listen to him.These days, I always felt

The news of the pregnancy hit me like a thunderbolt, making me unable to calm down, although from the beginning I and Matthew had discussed the issue of having a baby very clearly. We definitely had to have a baby, it was my duty. We were in agreement from the start, but I was never quite ready to be a mother.Of course I had no right to want or not to have children. Although I was very happy that Matthew and I were about to welcome a new life together, my anxiety was much greater than joy and happiness.At first, I thought very simply when I agreed to sign a marriage contract with Matthew, I thought that even though I would not be with my baby in the future, Matthew and the Brown family would take good care of him and give him a good life. he would receive materially adequate and a good education, which I always wanted to have. I originally thought that he would live well without me, but when I felt the child coming into this world, I realized how selfish and cruel I had been.I coul