Kabanata 11.1 - Bashers

I'm preparing for the color fun run later, 9 AM ang start no'n at 8 AM palang so I have much time to prepare. 7 AM ako gumising at nakaligo na rin ako kanina, maong short, black crop top sando and white rubber shoes lang ang suot ko since may ibibigay naman na damit, kasama kasi 'yon sa binayaran. Though, hindi ako ang nagbayad. I feel guilty tuloy! Pinagbayad ko si Isaiah tapos nilibre niya 'ko, unfair.

Isaiah will pick me up, ayos din naman since ayokong mag drive kasi hassle at the same time sayang sa gas. Kaso nagdadalawang isip ako ngayon kung tutuloy pa ba o hindi.

I already checked my twitter account, madaming nag follow request sa 'kin, ganoon din sa IG at pati sa F* ay madaming nag follow, mabuti nalang at naka private lahat ng accounts ko.

Karamihan ay hate post ang nakikita ko and yes, nakakasakit sila. They even posted pictures of me, kuha 'yon kahapon sa performance namin na may caption na 'Felt bad for those ppl who have heard her voice lmao'. Yes, I'm not that great in singing, and so? Why do they care ba? This is the reason why I keep myself lowkey as much as possible, I can't take hate comments or post or whatever, hindi ko yata kakayanin. Hindi naman ako gaya ni Kendall na so-called Unbothered Queen. I may look like tough but I have my weaknesses. I have trust issues and I can't even trust myself!

Nag-scroll pa 'ko at nagbasa ng mga tweets, may ibang pinagtatanggol pa ko. I saw some of my friends defending my name, yung iba ay hindi ko pa ganon ka-close but they're defending me, how sweet. I also saw Mads, Adel, Ken, Iris and Grace, nakikipag trashtalk-an sila, oh my God!

@cindy.v : kawawa naman si Nikolai mi loves, pipili nalang ng gugustuhin yung sintunado pa. Napanood ko play nila last night, it was so fine not until that girl showed up like seriously? Nanood kami to hear good singers not auto tuned one lmao. Balita ko co-director daw si ate girl, sana nag stay nalang siya sa backstage, mas bagay siya doon. She's too low for our Jauregui! Mas okay pa si Tasha sakaniya e, felt bad for Nikolai mi loves :<

That's the post from one of MY bashers, okay I shouldn't read this, I'm hurt! Nasira agad ang umaga ko, padabog kong ibinaba ang bread na tinoast ko kaya nagtaka naman si Mama, mamayang hapon pa siya pupunta sa work niya kaya nandito siya. Nginitian ko nalang siya.

@kendoll.dllv: hey miss cindymonyo na mukha namang inidoro. Before you spill some bad things about my bestfriend make sure you're prettier than her ha? I mean, look at yourself, kung may qualifications or standards lang ang pagiging mukhang tao, I'm hundred percent sure na hindi ka makakapasa. Goodmorning! #nohate :)

I laughed at that tweet, Ken is a real savage as fuck. Na-touched naman ako sakaniya.

@mads_G: I'm so sick of this, gez! So whoever posted/posting bad things abt my sis, have you heard of Republic Act 10627 or the Anti-Bullying Act? Hindi siguro no? Are you even a human? Cause I know humans should know what's right or wrong, you know naman 'di ba na it's not right to badmouth someone in private man or public lalo na kung wala naman 'tong ginagawa sainyo? You're lucky, my friend is nice. AND FUCK OFF! THEY'RE NOT EVEN DATING, IDK WHY JAUREGUI POSTED HER PICTURE IN HIS IG STORY!! #nohate

This is so her, articles and such. Kahit lagi ko siyang nababara, nandyan pa rin siya to defend me.

@a_cosme: I don't know who needs to hear this but my bestfriend— Treia, is so talented. You all don't know this because you really don't know her, you're like a piece of trash to say bad things about her, you didn't even know her. She is the so-called 'Jack of all trades', she is good at anything— dancing, singing, filming, drawing, painting, playing instruments, and etc. And even though I didn't get the chance to watch her performance last night, I know she did very well like God! She is the epitome of perfection and to all of you who are bashing her, this is the first time I'll say this in public so FUCK YOU! #nohate

Oh, I laughed a bit when I saw the last words in her tweet. She doesn't usually utter curses, kapag sobrang galit lang talaga. Aww so cute, napamura siya!

@grasyana.h: So balita ko bina-bash daw sissy ko dito sa twitter? HAHAHA Tangina nung mga nang-babash akala mo magaganda. Hoy mag-hugas nalang kayo ng plato sainyo kasi kahit anong gawin niyo, you can't change the fact na in-IG story siya ni Nikolai Jauregui! So, mainggit lang kayo dyan mga hampaslupa, palibhasa walang nag i-story sa mga pagmumukha niyong kepanget-panget, pwe! Napa-install pa 'kong twitter dahil dito, mga panget kayo. #welcombackontwittergrace #nohate

Damn you, Grace! Puro talaga kalokohan ang gaga na 'to. I laughed as I read her tweet, Mom glance at me. Siguro nagtataka kasi badtrip ako kanina tapos natawa ngayon.

@imogen_riese: First of all, WHERE THE HELL IS NIKOLAI JAUREGUI? He should be defending my bestfriend now because he's the one responsible for posting my bestfriend's picture on his IG story. I didn't know he has a lot of fans, immature fans rather. Kasalanan ba ng friend ko kung maganda siya at nagkagusto yung lodi nyo sakaniya? Bitch, please? Kasalanan niya rin bang inggitera kayong mga fans kuno ni Nikolai kaya 'di kayo magustuhan ng lodi nyo? Lmao, you made me laugh this morning by just reading your rants. Aral muna mga veh bago mang-bash, dami-daming problema sa mundo bakit hindi 'yon ang pagtuunan niyo ng pansin? Mga maderpaker na 'to! Btw, hi sa crush ko, baka nagt-twitter din siya lol #nohate

God! The last phrase made my eyes roll. But all in all, I'm touched. They're really my friends. They really know me. Muntik ko na malaglag yung phone ko nang mag-call si Isaiah, nakabusangot kong sinagot 'yon. Kasalanan niya kung bakit ako naba-bash ngayon, mabuti nalang at walang twitter sila Mama, si Ate naman for sure 'di siya nakakapag twitter dahil busy siya. I hope so! I'm really hoping.

"I'm outside your house," he calmly said.

Gusto ko sana siyang papasukin para dito maghintay dahil hindi ko pa naaayos ang bag na gagamitin ko kaso nandito si Mama at alam ko na kung anong iisipin niya sa'min ni Isaiah kaya mas okay nang nandoon siya sa labas maghintay.

"Okay," sambit ko at ibinaba ang call. Dali dali akong umakyat sa kwarto at inilagay ang mga gamit ko sa maliit na black bag pack. Liptint, extra shirt, towel and wallet ko lang ang nilagay ko doon since yun lang ang kasya. Pagtapos ay nagpaalam na 'ko kay Mama bago lumabas.