By the time my flight landed in New York, I had talked myself into believing that I was just here to look at an apartment. I had talked myself into believing that I wasn't excited to see Seth. My confidence was all built on a lie but it was one I had told myself enough that even I was starting to believe it.Flying wasn't bothering me anymore and I found my bags without too much grief. Seth had told me he would have a car waiting for me, I would have rather have taken a cab but I was kinda glad to see my name on a sign when I exited. Handing my bags to the driver I hopped in the back almost feeling like a kid. I mean in my opinion I should be sitting up front, not in the back.The car took off and I looked out the window, it wasn't raining but the sun wasn't out either. It was just an overcast day that left you wondering what it would do. Traffic was backed up but it didn't bother me. I was in no hurry to face Seth. I imagined all the conversations I would have with him

The next morning it was obvious Seth was much more excited about my new place than I was. He was on my ass trying to get me to make a list of things I would need to stay at the apartment. Sitting at the bar I groaned laying my head down on the counter, "Seth really all I need is my bag, I mean it's not like I'll be there for more than a night."Seth was standing on the other side of the bar frowning at me, "you told me yourself you take your classes online. You work from home. Why can't you go ahead and move up here?" I arched my brow at him, "Umm besides the fact that Brooke would kill me? I mean I don't want to be up here alone Seth." He sighed walking over to sit on the stool beside me, "it's only two months plus I will come to see you as much as I can."Shaking my head I looked over at him, "all of my stuff is in Texas, Seth."He shrugged like it was no big deal, "so take your flight home, pack what you can bring with you, and anything e

My flight home had gone smoothly , the flying didn't bother me at all but the ride home always wore me out. Brooke and Christine were both waiting for me at the airport. I was bummed because I wanted to talk more to Brooke about what was going on. Brooke wasn't very talkative and it surprised me but it was still early for her so I let it go and instead talked to Christine most of the way home. I had a sinking suspicion that Brooke had told Christine who I had been in New York with. I couldn't prove it for a fact but something was off.

My parents had tried to call me and talk to me before I left but I wasn't in the mood to talk to them. Even my sister had stopped by but I had refused to talk to her about anything that had happened. Everything I owned was packed. I had decided instead of getting my furniture taken to my parents' storage unit that I would just rent my own. Thankfully I was able to set it up for automatic payments so I wouldn't forget.I still hadn't talked to Seth. He had been quiet on social media but Christia had been blowing up both Twitter and Instagram. Seth was in almost every one of her pictures but to his credit, he didn't look very happy about it. In fact, in one he looked plain bored. It was weird not talking to him. I had gotten used to talking to him every night and it felt like something was missing now that we weren't speaking.Thursday night I had not been able to sleep so Brooke and I sat on the couch all night laughing and crying. We had never been away from each other

The next morning Seth and I just chilled, I didn't have the energy to argue with him anymore and I wasn't even sure if I wanted to. I don't really know how I felt when he left. There was still too much unknown. He had left around 4 and not long after rumors of his sex tape hit the internet. For now, nothing had been released. Seth had called and told me that his team had threatened to sue but it was only a matter of time before it was out, there was really no way to stop it.Brooke had called me flipping out. I had to explain to her that he had already told me about it, that yes there actually was a video, and no I wasn't upset. I mean I didn't want to see the damn thing, but I wasn't going to be mad over something he did before he met me. However yes, it made me question things with him even more. He wasn't who I had thought he was, or maybe he wasn't who I wanted him to be. Brooke was in disbelief and had given me every reason in the book as to why I should be mad at him. I