The walk back in the forest was fast with my ears perked up, listening to all that were near me and also trying to think of a way to break what I would to the king and royal beta. I shook my head, chuckling just from the thought of it. I took the flying machine up, my hands shaking, my eyes barely seeing anything with something thick and heavy stuck in my throat. My hands rubbed on each other. The flying machine seemed to move fast and slow at the same time. I was trying to sort through my words, trying to come up with a speech that would have me at better odds of getting what I needed. The doors dinged and I thought I would faint. My heel clicked on the floor, seeing the doors, passing all until I stood before Brum’s office. I raised my hand to lower it. My face was pure black I was sure from all the blood just rushing there. I was hot and flustered, the dress suddenly too tight. I knocked once, listening, with no reply coming so I ju

There was no time to sit at the eating place and chat like all the people did because the sun had gone down for some time. Dinner would be served and we were late. There was no choice than let Stern turn to his wolf and ride on him because time was not our side. And besides that, my feet were black with the skin having torn at some point. I had been standing all day long with everything hurting. The ride took a couple of minutes and there would be no time for us to go change before dinner. I was so over the dress and especially the shoes. I had to finger comb my hair to get it presentable after the air blowing through it and sending it all crazy. I slipped off Stern, him tracking away to the other side of the castle to change as I waited for him. He came back wearing a black shirt and shorts, his hair all messy. In my hands were a couple paper bags that mostly carried samples I would use when doing some more decorating and add to my color chart. 

Minutes passed with nothing but silence after his words. He just sat there, his face blank with me crying. I pulled my feet onto the chair, my head on my knees, and just letting the tears fall. I could not hold it back; I could not hide away from him. His words kept echoing and making it even worse. My tears dried, just sitting there not wanting to say anything back for I would be accepting it all. I did not want to raise my head because I would have to talk and accept what had been said. It hurt so much but I was sure it hurt even more for him on top of all that he had to deal with. I would not let myself add to his troubles. I would not make everything worse for him. He had a war inside and out with it seeming he was losing both. Life was unfair. I had thought my life was the worst but I took it all back. My pain was nothing compared to all they had gone through. I would have to let him go; I would have to let all of him go. My hands were shaking, my hand

 The work kept me occupied. The next day I woke up sad but with such energy. It all was happening and I knew I would be working my ass off all day long. I rushed down after a quick shower, finding the trucks already in the royal grounds. We offloaded everything, some members of the pack coming to help when done with breakfast. I had to hide in a corner for some time until I was sure the king was finished and gone from the dining room. I walked past the dinning room doors quiet often so I did not want to bump into him. There were so many things and I could not believe I had even bought that much staff. When it was all unloaded and packed, the trucks left with the designers left behind. We looked at the throne room, telling them how I wanted everything to look and they suggested some things for me. After a few hours of brainstorming and drawing we began doing what we could. The workers from the light shop came by duri

“Are you okay?” I asked after slipping so many times I was all yellow. “Yeah, I am fine.” The woman said, standing up and trying to wipe off the butternut. A breath escaped me, relieved she was okay. “Are you okay luna?” A panicked voice came behind me as I turned, seeing Stern with me nodding my head, not even able to speak as I took in all the mess all around us and I felt as if I was losing my mind. I did not even know where to start with everyone frozen where they were. The smell hit my nostrils, snapping me in action. I turned off all the stoves, standing in utter horror with me waving my hands to get rid of the dripping butter nut. At that point all I wanted was to just get through the day, I did not care anymore but just to get through it. “Stern, go get as many women as you can. The rest of us will clean this up then we will go clean up and come back