Lilliana’s POVTo get my mind off the things that were happening around the house and the fact that I was under scrutiny of Nikolai, I decided to dedicate the past few days to working fervently.I still feel choked whenever I remember that I was supposed to be in the same room with him but the tiredness and fatigue helped with that.I managed to distance myself from him and to do this, I always made sure that I only walked into the bedroom during the day and that’s if and only if I was certain that he was not in there.At night, I would not go inside the house until I was certain that he had fallen asleep and as much as I resented Nikolai now, I also couldn’t help but start to pick up on some new attributes surrounding him.His overprotectiveness because of my pregnancy irritated me but at the same time, I can't help but feel a tug on my chest anytime I walked inside to see Nikolai sleeping on the mat with the bed perfectly made.“You can have the bed, I don’t always have to sleep on

Lilliana’s POVThe souls of water running jolted me awake as I turned on the bed, my eyes opened and was immediately drawn to the table in front of me.The room was filled with the delicious aroma of the tasty food I was staring at, my stomach growled and it was at that moment I remembered I didn’t eat anything before going to bed last night.Sighing, I groaned as I tried to get out of bed and the sound of the bathroom water running came again.I didn’t need a soothsayer to tell me that Nikolai was in there and he was also the one that prepared the table with the delicious meals.A smile tugged at the side of my lips as my mind drifted to the past when I’d spend the night in the master bedroom with him and in the morning we’d have our showers together.Things seemed perfect then, it felt like nothing could go wrong until everything went wrong and a really big part of me wanted those times back.“What the hell are you thinking about?” I said to myself as I shook my head to get the thou

Lilliana’s POVWalking towards Nikolai has never made me so nervous like I was right now. We soon got to the dining room and Nikolai was at the far end of the table, his usual seat.My steps became heavier and our eyes met for a brief moment as soon as I showed up in the room.My heart pounded so hard that I thought I was going to pass out and it raced so fast that it felt as though it was going to race out of my chest.“It’s just Nikolai,” I reminded myself as I tried to calm my raging heart, “I hate him, I hate him, I want him.” My mantra doesn’t seem to be working as I approach the table.My throat felt dry and Nikolai too has never looked so good. His face was ruggedly handsome and the way his firm mouth curled as if on the edge of laughter threatened to push me over the edge.Something is going on! I’ve never been this affected by him after what happened between him and Jenna.His lips looked firm and sensual and I wanted nothing more than to put mine on it, I wanted to kiss him

Lilliana’s POVUnable to control my body, I felt myself melting as I got lost in his eyes with different lustful thoughts racing through my mind.I still couldn’t believe that I was reacting to him like this, I shouldn’t be so putty in his hands not after everything he has put me through but it was hard.It was hard to not get weak knees just by staring at him, it was hard to not feel my panties getting wet just by the way his arms wrapped around me, holding me tightly and pulling me into him.My body felt so hot and the heat I felt in my cheeks intensified, it must have amused Nikolai because I didn’t miss the small smirk that played across his lips.His muscular arm slowly trailed a path down my back and I felt my pulse quickening. I wanted to pull away.I wanted to fight the feeling but it was a game that I was losing. His lips were firm and sensual and they called out to me.“L— Let me…. Go…” I stuttered, my walls breaking as the seconds ticked by and I wanted to look away from hi

Lilliana’s POVI was taken aback, I never thought that I would ever see Nikolai break down in front of me. Tears welled up in my eyes but I was too determined to hold them back.My body shook and my knees went weak as I sat slowly on the bed with Nikolai still kneeling in front of me.“I know, I don’t deserve any more chances, I’ve messed up too much but please, Lilliana.” He begged, reaching out to hold my hand but I pulled it away.I was scared, scared that I’d be forced to forgive and give him the last chance he’s asking for if I let him touch me.I’ve never really been able to control myself whenever Nikolai was involved and seeing him like this was doing things to me.It was as though I was in a haze, like he was a mirage and none of this was real. It was as though Nikolai wasn’t here and I was making things up in my head.I knew I wasn’t making anything up when I felt his hand and something wet on my feet. Gasping, I looked down to see Nikolai holding onto my feet really tightly