I walked around the property of my parents house. I let my emotions flow, the pain in my heart was palpable. I felt so rejected by her. It tore my heart apart. I know we had fun at that party, and I claimed her as I had been wanting to do for the past two years. I prayed that my devotion to her in the hospital would spark something between us. Two years I have waited for her to be mine. During the party, I felt like I finally had my chance. She was not with Tyson anymore, or anyone else. The last two years have been brutal, my wolf has nearly overpowered me at times. He is getting so impatient waiting for her. Every time I had a chance to take a step to claim her. She had moved on to someone else. She only saw me as a friend, she never looked my way as anything but a friend and classmate. When she started dating Tyson who was going to be my Beta, I felt like the universe was pulling us closer to each other. I finally had the opportunity to spend more time with her as she hung around

Kayla POVI drive for what feels like hours. During the first several hours I could not stop crying. Leaving everything behind was harder than I ever imagined. All I did originally was dream of ditching the state of Georgia, leaving my miserable fathers house behind, and heading into the horizon. Finding new adventures, and a new destiny before coming home to Damien. Now, everything has changed. Everything felt different. I was different, I did not feel like that same girl anymore. My heart ached for Damien, I never meant to abandon him. I knew though after what I did, I could never see him again, I could never go back there. I knew that I had to rewrite my story and live a completely different life away from my pack. I prayed that he would move on and choose someone else like Whitney or Stella as his Luna. I prayed to the goddess through his grief he would find happiness. I fought to keep more tears at bay. I need to leave everyone and start over. Go so far away that no one would fin

After class, Dakota and I walked together. We decided to eat lunch together. As we walked into the dining hall, I spotted Travis with some of his friends. A few of the devious girls were hanging around him. One was being obvious as she stroked his muscled arms and was making clear signs of desiring to mate later on. Everything I would have done myself to any Damien and every other guy I knew in my old school. As I looked at them, I saw myself. I never realized until now what a slut I was back in my pack. Seeing these girls and how they were acting towards Travis gave me a dose of reality. My father was right, I was a whore, I just never saw it. I thought back to the drinking, the parties, the threesomes, to Damien claiming me and myself pushing him away countlessly only to try and pursue a different guy. All the disrespectful flirting I did. I knew for a while Damien was mine. The night we had the threesome. Damien was right, it did become most me and him with Tyson watching because,

New BeginningsI cannot believe that I have been here three months. My birthday is drawing near soon, I am scared but excited at the same time. During this time, I feel like I have drawn a lot closer to Travis. I have never broached the subject about his pack. I never voiced to him my fears when he would ask me what is troubling me. How could I? what would I ask him or what would he even say? What direction would our relationship turn if he learned that Carter was alive and the pack he lived near. What would he think of the man he became. There is so much more to the story I am sure that none of my pack members and I know about what really happened to Carters pack. We have only heard hearsay. d made me worry constantly. Would Carter ever come back and then find me here? I know he would kill me. I can never let him find me. I pray to the goddess he never does. \I am sitting in my second hour class which I now share with Travis, Dakota, and a girl named Bitsy. She had red hair, and tur

It has been a week since I reverted back to my old sense. Not fully though, I may be dressing like the old me, however, I am not going to be as reckless as I was. Will I party yes, but, if I find my mate, I am not going to toss his feelings around. That was a mistake I made with Damien, I knew he was claiming me, and I was a fool for not basking in it like any other girl would. Looking back now, why did I want to “play the field” with an Alpha that I had always loved and wanted? That is why it hurt so much to leave him in the beginning. That is why there was pain when I thought about him or thought about moving on. It is the only scenario I can think of, somewhere deep inside knew that I had always been meant for him, and it was trying to stop me from being a slut. I had Tyson but, I somehow always knew Damien was meant for me, I was just to selfish to accept it.The pain in my heart when I think of him does not diminish. I will myself to stop myself from thinking of him. As much as